Thursday, October 10, 2013

Do Not.....

Do not allow the negative thoughts and attitudes of others... .. define or shape your thoughts, or how you see yourself.
YOU KNOW YOURSELF, better than other people.  SOOOO... do not  let people, tell you, that they know you  better than...you know yourself.
THAT...is a load of BULL.
The only thing people may be privy to "KNOW" about you...is what you choose to divulge, show or share about yourself.

Saturday, April 13, 2013

Family Love and Loyalty...When Blood is Thinner than Water

Several years ago, I lost my brother.  His passing was so sudden, and the details of his passing did nothing to comfort my being. He usually stopped over to spend time with us, before heading...flying off to one of his educational conferences on the mainlland.  We would all look forward to seeing him and spending those cherished several days together, before he headed back home to the islands.  News of his coming and going would always be met with such elation, applause and peals of laughter. "Oh, Uncle is coming...Uncle is coming up??? Yeeeah! Even, I  could not contain the excitement and joined in with the cacophony! Simply put, it was always a ray of sunshine, when my beloved brother stopped by.

Even as I write about him, and it has been several years since his passing....my heart feels that familiar pain, and sadness, slowly creeping in...my eyes well up in tears, and I see his face. My brother, my friend...the only one that I felt I could trust, and talk to freely, about anything ....without being judged. His laughter and sense of humor was contagious! There is no mistaking that when we had our family get together, or just firing up the barbeque and relaxing to old school, motown, soul and even classic island flava music...there was no question, that he was always the life of the party.

Several things happened before, during and after his funeral, which I found to be quite disconcerting. Through it all, what I found quite distasteful, and manipulative, was when my own maternal relatives, actually showed their true colors, and intentions. They reaffirmed my initial suspicion and distrust. They didn't give a damn about us, or for that matter my beloved brother. Their actions we nothing more but public showmanship. Let the public see that they are handling the funeral. Awwww, show that they care? Nothing but misleading and deceptive behaviors.
Please, stop lying about what happened. Most of all, STOP lying about how you wronged us with the the land probate in Upolu.
There are other negative situations, incidents, wrongful things against my family, that you all, have done.Atrocious acts of greed, on all your part that transpired, without much of a second thought.
What goes around...certainly comes around. What you give out to others, the Universe gives out or sends back to you. It's KARMA, coming full circle.





Sunday, March 10, 2013

Shake it, but dont Break it

Recently, I spent a night out on the town, with some friends. Mind you, it was my first time going out, since FOREVER. lol. Taking care of family and handling the daily demands and stresses of life, can surely take its toll on one's perception of that seemingly elusive ...joie de vive. lol   It just seemed like there was no end to the "all work and no play,"...syndrome which monopolized my daily existence.

There was that "lets do lunch" or "lets go on a girl's night out"..which never seemed to make it, onto any of  the calendar blocks. No special highlighted....ME time. My calendar is filled with a daily "To Do List"....task schedules, appointments,forms to pick up and to be filled out, taking family members to work and to school, picking them up afterwards, medical appointments....in fact, it all seemed impressive to be able to follow the calendar to the letter. Multicolored check marks, reds, blues, greens, purple, pink...et cetera.  Truthfully? It was plain and damn BORING. hahaha.  Days would turn into weeks and then, months would pass, and the growing urge to step out and have some fun, would just go by with a long drawn sigh.

Well, that was until recently when I just FB'd (faced booked...messaged), my friend Oni and she told me that it was high time that we step out and have some fun in the form of.... Dancing. Yup, you got that right...it was time to get out there and dance all that stress away...hahaha!  I would say that it was fantastic! We went to Rumours....at the Alamoana Hotel...and the crowd there was just rocking the floor off!

The last time I ever remember being at Rumours, is when I was 22-23 years old! Yeeeaah! hahaha Oh, but here was a crowd that I would say, that I truly felt in sync and totally comfortable with through and through. I was dancing up a storm, and took breaks in between. I was just shaking and working that body to all that great  music...like there was no tomorrow.